My “Why”

Each person has their own stories, their own memories, their own turning points and their own motivations that empower them. I think in order to fully know me in this role you need to know my story…

The drive for starting this venture is my fertility journey. The one that isn’t straight and has gone up and down, right and left to get to my goal which is having a sweet baby. I was lucky enough to welcome my baby boy in November of 2020. From the outside it might seem like everything went as planned and came easily. In actuality it felt the complete opposite. It was loss, heartache, tears, stress, jealously, obsession and never ending hope.

My fertility journey began when Adam and I got pregnant by surprise in Sept 2018. We were thrilled. For the next 12.5 weeks we talked, dreamed, planned for the sweet baby we would welcome. That was until a night in November that still haunts me to this day... the night we miscarried.

My miscarriage was extremely traumatic emotionally but also physically. I hemorrhaged after miscarrying and was throwing huge blood clots. I lost so much blood that I passed out and smashed my face on my dresser while trying to walk. Adam ended up calling an ambulance only to realize they were taking too long and decided to drive me himself. I was in and out of consciousness in the car and was basically gray/ white when I got to the hospital. It was honestly the scariest day of my life and I thought I was going to die.

The ER staff didn’t give us any inclination to what might have happened so we followed up with my MD. I knew that what happened to me wasn’t normal and I wanted answers. And this is where my story begins... the next 6 months were a whirlwind of doctors, bloodwork, tests, vitamins, disappointments and tears. I was told “1 in 4” miscarry (which side note I freaking hate this statement.) Knowing that one out of every four pregnancies end like mine did not make me feel even a tiny bit better and justifying it as such a casual common occurrence only makes it worse. At one point when asking for certain blood tests the doctor rolled her eyes at me and asked if I “googled it”. It made me feel crazy and that I just needed to accept that “1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage”. But if anyone knows me you know I am stubborn. I don’t just accept things especially when they don’t sit right with me. So I did what anyone would do. I googled. I researched. I followed a million accounts on instagram in the field. I started listening to podcasts every day anytime I was in my car. Podcasts from people who are experts on pregnancy, fertility and nutrition. Lily Nichols. Haylee Nye & Kristin Cornett. Ben lynch. Jolene brighten. Lara Briden. Aumatma Shah. Ayla Brammer. I started learning and listening and reading. I realized I had a lot more going on that my general practitioner refused to acknowledge or look into. I found out I had a mutation of my MTHFR gene, my gut was completely imbalanced including having SIBO, I had borderline hypothyroidism, imbalanced blood sugar not to mention eventually getting diagnosed with polyps in my uterine lining.

I tried for 8 months to get pregnant with Carter and actually sought treatment with a fertility clinic. I was scheduled to have surgery to remove polyps in my uterine lining but ended up getting pregnant with Carter first. But I’ve lived through the months of tracking temperatures and cervical fluid. I spent hundreds of dollars on ovulation tests & pregnancy tests only to see the negative sign month after month. I’ve had to try to get pregnant even on nights when I was exhausted or not particularly in the mood because I was ovulating and we couldn’t miss an opportunity. I watched people all around me get pregnant so easily and quickly.

It felt like I had to spend years figuring this out on my own in order to devise a solution that would work for me. I didn’t feel supported. I had people tell me I was being dramatic for lingering sadness about my miscarriage. I had people say “don’t worry you’ll go on to have healthy babies” and luckily that ended up being true. I had doctors say that “until you’ve been trying to get pregnant for over a year unsuccessfully we don’t really do anything.” Or “once you’ve had three miscarriages then we will investigate.” But through this journey grew a desire to help others not have to go through what I went through. So I completed my certification to become a nutritional therapy practitioner. I don’t want anyone to have to feel alone or defeated or confused. I don’t want anyone to feel like they aren’t heard or don’t deserve answers.

So my why is to help you find answers that actually help you. To find root causes and heal from the inside.

My why is to make sure you feel supported in whatever area of your fertility journey you’re in.

My why is to empower women to trust in their body to get pregnant and have a healthy baby, the exact thing it was meant to do.

My why is to help you regain balance and use food to heal and fuel yourself whether your preparing your body and trying to conceive, currently pregnant and growing/nurturing your babe or replenishing after birth.

My why is to give you the knowledge and information you need to be the healthiest version of yourself for not only your baby but for you.

Trying to conceive? I’m here

Newly pregnant? I’m here

Preparing for birth? I’m here

Postpartum? I’m here

Even if I’m not an expert in what you need help with you better believe I will do my best to connect you with people that can help you.

I’m glad you’re here and I’m here to help.
xoxo Meghan